Is God real to you? How about His love?
I have believed that Jesus is Lord, and Savior of the world, approaching 40 years now. In a heartbeat, I can look to Him, and He is there. But yet…for me, a more conscious apprehension of His love, and especially His love for me, has remained elusive. Sure, there are moments…but something has been missing. I questioned if I really was one of those included in the Scripture “God causes all things to work together for good to them who love Him…” I knew I needed God, but I wasn’t at all sure that I loved Him. Because I wasn’t at all able to have a sense of God as love. Though the Scriptures make that clear, for me it seemed a void.
I don’t see a final, permanent solution to anything outside of God’s love, which engenders His promises. I have concluded that if you can’t trust in His love…for you…you won’t be able to consistently believe His promises. This inability to believe leaves an open door for doubt & fear to enter, to gnaw away at your peace and make you sick.
Ours essential battles are not against flesh & blood, but powers & principalities which deal in fear. At root, the issue isn’t that money is tight and costs prohibitive to even survival. The issue is fear. The issue is, do you really trust in God? If we really trust God, we will not fear. And I have yet to guarantee an easy way to trust somehow you don’t know. Perhaps some can, but with God. who is invisible, it might take some effort for others of us.
I have had to work at it. I have had to really think about certain Scriptures, and make decisions – repeatedly, over the past few years. And I am telling you, though you may struggle a lifetime, when the love of God arises like the day-star in your heart and all around, every wall falls down, and every strong hold is broken. You KNOW. You know He is the Mighty God, King of the Universe, Who alone is good and will always do what He promises. In Him, you stand in power and truth, and you KNOW it.
When this Light ,which is God, causes there to be no place found for darkness, the alacrity of His faithfulness becomes astonishingly apparent. It is mind-blowing. It is real and true. If you are not in that place yet, be absolutely assured that it is there. It exists. Keep fighting your particular good fight, and stay the course. As difficult as it may seem to do so, there comes a point when it is the only recourse left to you. Like those final throes of a woman in labor, give it your one final push. Make the decision to forge ahead, in Christ, for all you’re worth, not looking back. At this point, for you, His kingdom is very close.