It Started Way before 9/11…

…a post from December, 2010…

Jesus, the Revolution & You

In the days following September 11, 2001, I heard something like this from the Lord : that He took no pleasure in that horrendous, vicious wounding of our nation. While many who stood behind pulpits, or listened from pews in front of them, preached judgment on America for her sins, I heard something else. I heard that a silent poison had been spreading, and was far more advanced than we knew. Stopping its spread required perseverance and a ’never forget’ mentality, and these in turn required such a wounding as the catastrophic tragedy that took place in New York city that morning. A lesser event could fade from memory, and not elicit the sustained vigilance necessary to combat terrorism and preserve our land.

This was how I understood what I believed was shared with me that day.

Today, I understand more. I understand the poison that had been spreading was…

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Wounded, that We may Live – September 11, 2001

Today, along with the rest of America & the world, I too remember September 11, 2001.

Just typing the date triggers tears, my stomach crunches and here I sit, near sobbing.  Ten years later, for me, the events of that day in New York city have become even more real.   I lost no one in that tragedy, but its impact has morphed anew into a more open heart – a heart that has become more able to identify with the grief of those who did. 

 I’m not sure when or how this happened. 

Maybe my internal monitors have finally released their ‘hold’.  Maybe it has been determined that it is now safe for my mind & nervous system to accept the events of that day, in a way that I could not have done before.  Because today, for the first time, I understand that not just people, but my fellow Americans were greatly damaged, greatly & tragically wounded, because their friends and loved ones suddenly & horribly lost their lives on that day of infamy. 

Watching a special television program about the Pentagon Memorial last night, I found myself empathizing quickly, as though with them, or as if I knew them.  Something was different.  I seemed not to be afraid to step up, step closer in heart & spirit, not to be afraid to acknowledge that this unimaginable devastation really did happen, to people like me and mine.  People who love their families, work hard to build their lives, who love this country, and most of whom probably love God.  They, and I, cannot go back in time and undo this nightmare in history.  We cannot pretend this did not happen, because it did happen, and we all of us are forever changed.

In times past, I could not relate when persons spoke of the American spirit.  Today, I can.  I know that it is real, and it endures.  It, and the strength, grace & mercy of God in Christ are what have enabled some of the survivors of the attack on the Pentagon to want to reverse the tragedy and plant something positive & life-affirming in its place.  It is what beckons to the builders & architects of the new, in-progress Trade Center towers, to create a structure better than the ones that were so brutally destroyed. It is at its root that same spirit that caused our Founding Fathers  to create this nation, and multitudes of Patriots known & unknown, to die for it.  It is a spirit that I believe, with all my heart, comes from the Spirit of God, which is why, against all odds, we carry on.

Today, also for the first time, I caught my own vision.  For the first time, I saw what I believe can be multiplication upon multiplication of the very same process that took place in me.  Within individuals, because we were and are, hated & attacked with deadly intent, can be birthed a renewed  brotherly love and comradeship with God & each other.  It can happen. Jesus came that we might have life, and have it abundantly, and He was not necessarily talking about big screen TV’s, Mercedes or a Trump empire.  Rivers of living water flow from our bellies – from within.  His ways are different from our ways, and it may be that this deep & most difficult wounding of our nation, that took place on September 11, 2001 had a Divine Purpose other than what many think. 

All the promises of God in Christ are yes and Amen.

Found within the Rubble

 

It Started Way before 9/11…

In the days following September 11, 2001, I heard something like this from the Lord : that He took no pleasure in that horrendous, vicious wounding of our nation. While many who stood behind pulpits, or listened from pews in front of them, preached judgment on America for her sins, I heard something else. I heard that a silent poison had been spreading, and was far more advanced than we knew. Stopping its spread required perseverance and a ’never forget’ mentality, and these in turn required such a wounding as the catastrophic tragedy that took place in New York city that morning. A lesser event could fade from memory, and not elicit the sustained vigilance necessary to combat terrorism and preserve our land.

This was how I understood what I believed was shared with me that day.

Today, I understand more. I understand the poison that had been spreading was, and is, something other than ‘terrorism’, in the sense that we, as ’Westerners’ know it. It is what produces that terrorism – an ideology that has been at work in our world for centuries. I would go so far as to say, it goes back to Biblical times, to Old Testament Israel, even to the Genesis creation accounts. It is, at root, the eternal conflict between the Most High and the one who presumed to say, “I will be like the Most High.” (Isaiah 14:14) And, in fact, its origins may be even deeper than this, in a sense – the boiled-down conflict is between law and grace.

While the Adversary desires to enslave, He who alone is God wants to set us free.

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I cannot emphasize enough how much Jesus came to set men free. I am so very, very clear on that. He knows the end from the beginning, and most certainly, looking down the corridors of time in ages past, saw the condition of our world today. The Ancient of Days knew. By His blood, in the New Covenant, He provided miraculously, fully and finally, for this condition which exists in man, and through man, produces chaos in the environment. (Even trying to reverse this chaos often only exacerbates it!) Man’s finest yet remains flawed, but a better Way has been given to us.

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Didn’t Want to Know This…

Recent days have found me pushing ahead in my beginning investigations of the 9/11 Conspiracy Theory.

I think that a person needs to somehow have been prepared before-hand, (whether he/she was aware of that process or not) to assimilate the shock of exposure to such an inquiry. Automatic rejection of what many might consider preposterous…impossible…shields. But if one has been fortified, a drawback can be delayed. It becomes possible to consider what only a couple of months ago would’ve been, for me, unthinkable.

Never, ever did I imagine, when I first conceived of a website that inspired through the lives & accomplishments of others, that I would be writing anything like this. That I would be THINKING anything like this. God knows the end from the beginning, but I surely didn’t. What I can see, however, is how I’ve been prepared, buffeted enough by research into topics hard to hear about, that today I can do this. So far, at least.

Yesterday I wondered if I should forget about it. I can’t even explain how disassociated I’m feeling.

The thing is, many who have been questioning, and steadily, stalwartly almost crusading for truth, are architects, engineers, scientists. Not whack-jobs…and I find as I read, connect with others, and think about this, my conclusion to date is that the horror of our government being the manipulator of September 11, 2001 is a very real possibility.

Odd bits & pieces of alleged information, statements that caused me to wonder for just a second!, that flitted through my mind back then, and in the recent couple years that I’ve been blogging, have re-surfaced. Articles that I’ve happened upon in my Middle East events/foreign policy reading…now I’m re-thinking some of them.

I NEVER wanted to know these things.

I suspect many who read my posts have been waaay ahead of me. The wealth of 9/11 ‘truthers’ staggers. At this point, my thought is, the accusations seem almost needless – what is presented as evidence, if truly that, leaves no other option.

My thoughts on this are running deep…but, as I mentioned earlier, I am just beginning this journey.


Christina, signing out for now…

9/11 Conspiracy?…American Liberty…& Washington’s Spies

UpdateI admit that I acquiesced way too easily to the debunking of the 9/11 Conspiracy Theory. I admit that even as I was acquiescing, I knew that…Though the Popular Mechanics article referenced below seemed solid, still, a couple of details didn’t quite seem to mesh. I wanted to, and did, ignore those slightly nagging loose ends. I thought, well, 97% of this makes sense. I’m probably not thinking clearly…surely, I’m no structural engineer…After my last bout with government conspiracy plots, which wrecked me for a couple of weeks! I think that I simply did not want to have to ‘deal with’ another one.

Thing is, instead of feeling sick & overwhelmed, as I had back then – this time, I had the peace that passes all understanding. It was profound and total. Which is why I felt the Lord had led me to this topic.
I feel foolish now, having been so quick to cave.
I didn’t expect to come across a conspiracy-related comment on the CBS.com site a couple days ago. But come across one, I did, and it was too compelling to ignore. I contacted the commenter and acquired more information, links, websites etc. It is with a somber heart that I will embark on this next venture…

“For there is nothing hid, which shall not be manifested: neither was any thing kept secret, but that it should come abroad.” (Mark 4:22)

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Recently, events both in the world & in my own life have come together in such a way as to put me back on the counter-terrorism trail, so to speak. My previous endeavors in that area left me depleted & weakened, and I wasn’t planning on returning any time soon…but this struggle in our time is not over, and if I intend to try and be aware of God’s voice and His hand, both in the world & in my own life, then I will need to continue to be aware of our war on terror. And, sometimes, write about it.

It makes me angry that those valiant men & women who risked their all, in the years surrounding 1776, so that future generations, and you & I, could live in freedom, may possibly one day realize that we blew it. I say ‘possibly’. It is not, in my mind, a foregone conclusion that America‘s days are numbered. Yes, I know they COULD be, but to the end of my days, as long as I have a ’say’ in the matter, I will continue to hold out hope and believe for the best. I have only just begun to imbibe deeply of the vision and the documents that frame it, and I do not intend to stop. And for the record, in recent times I believe I have heard from the Lord, and He has shown my heart, in specific words, that He does not want America to fail. Can any of you hear that in your spirit, as well?

Washington & Jefferson are becoming more alive for me than ever! And though I have done almost no research…yet…on John Adams, he also is becoming quickened to me, and beginning to appear within my inner ’theater’.

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Learning of the potential upcoming construction of an Islamic mosque at Ground Zero (comprehension almost completely eludes me as to how such an event could even be thought of, let alone actually considered) prompted the placing of the link at the top of this page. Searching for an appropriate accompanying picture led me to various other links/articles. Which was how, almost 9 years later, I found myself for the first time exposed to detailed accounts of the 9/11 conspiracy theory.

It isn’t that I hadn’t come across a mentions of some of these theories/suspicions here & there. I had. But only mentions. I always immediately & vehemently discounted them. As I read these articles & comments, however, I began to be pulled in…I believe that anything is possible, and what I might automatically repudiate is probably the thing I should take more time to consider, or investigate.

I want to thank blog author Steve @ Careful Thought for providing me with a link to a Popular Mechanics article refuting each conspiracy claim. At least to my satisfaction…and may I say, I want to thank God for this article and for all the engineers, techs, scientists etc. who contributed to it. I feel as if, whew! I dodged a bullet!

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But now my attention has been drawn back to what I would like to not think about. And, for awhile, that was OK…looks like ‘awhile’ is over now…

Looking at so many photographs of the horror of that day and its desolate aftermath left me mourning 9/11 once again. I still cry every time I think about it for more than a few seconds, or speak of it. But those pictures…for her own sake, America must never forget. And I don’t mean this in a stirring-up-vindictiveness way. I’m not even sure how I mean it, but there must remain Americans who do not forget. As a memorial to the many American lives taken away, as Jay Sekulow writes, by brutal and sadistic terrorism, causing thousands of broken hearts and homes and communities…we need to remember. None of those who died in the 9/11 attacks woke up that day knowing their lives would be sacrificed for the American cause, for liberty glorious. We cannot let those sacrifices have been made in vain.

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On Monday, July 19, when the Washington Post released its 2-year long investigative report on America’s intelligence agencies, “Top Secret America“, I had already been primed for it. I’m assuming that at least half of the population is thinking some of my same thoughts here, one of which would be, don’t some aspects of this expose’ of US intelligence activities/locations present security risks? Reassurances that they do not, do NOT truly reassure me. And, to what purpose has this investigation been conducted, exactly? Will good come out of it?
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I’ve only read the first section so far, but doing so has re-ignited my earlier interests in spymaster extraordinaire George Washington, and the Culper spy ring of Revolutionary War days. So, you know what will be coming up soon on ‘God, History & You…!

Guantanamo

My mushy, emotional Obama moment is over.

This is definitely not a political discussion-type blog, and it won’t be often that I post my opinion on current events, but today I am. I don’t have a mind for political/government etc. debate, I go on my instinct. I can’t prove a point in this arena, I don’t know enough. I get headaches trying to read and learn all the necessary facts. But I’ve been reading & getting headaches for the past two days, trying to understand, to comprehend the bigger picture behind President Obama’s signing of the order to close the Guantanamo prison within a year.

This detention center houses some major terror suspects, specifically five of whom are believed to have been involved in the planning of 9/11. The order includes shutting down secret CIA prisons, world-wide, where we held suspected terrorists. And it looks like what I call ‘soft-on-torture’ legislation is being officially adopted. Extremely soft.

For two or three days before the Inauguration, I was getting this sense of dread, this sick feeling that, once sworn in, we would begin to see a different Obama than the charismatic guy who campaigned. My fear specifically was…well, something just like this.

I really need to take time to read the Constitution through, because I don’t know how, or if, the Bush administration may have violated it, broken the law. But, you know, though it may be proven that such was the case, my position is, whatever it takes to prevent another 9/11…