Events have transpired in my life, over the past year, in such a way as to have very much hindered my writing pursuits. “Jesus, the Revolution & You” while never leaving my heart, has even so floated to the back burner of actual production efforts. Mainly, I’ve re-blogged previous posts.
I’m writing today simply because I want to get my toes back in the water. A slight reprieve from what has become an unexpected lifestyle routine has been given to me today; so, after lollygagging awhile, I’ve decided to let the dishes sit, leave the laundry in its pile, and forget about responsibilities in general. I’m headin’ towards the water’s edge! Perhaps some encouragement for others, similarly re-routed in life, can be salvaged from my current experiences.
I have worked all my life. Because I’ve been trying to walk with the Lord, and follow Him, I did not pursue a career – even job training. I never felt that He was leading me to do that. At age 50, I did believe He was leading me to choose between either that course of action, or writing. Though it may have appeared foolish and risky, I chose writing. It was an easy decision. I knew that I had writing ability and had never really used it. I also knew that if I should die any time soon, I would not regret not having, say, pursued a career in law…but I would SO regret having wasted the gift of creating with words.
It took a few years to realign my routines & activities with more creative pursuits. Long story short, finally, last March, I retired. Finally, I could write. EVERY indication pointed in that direction. And I still do not believe I erred in my decision, but…though I prayed, got numerous confirmations, sought counsel, thought & thought about it…and had a very clear vision of unobstructed, prosperous writing bliss…and would bet money that God was leading me to follow this path….
…it is almost a year later and I have done almost no writing.
The details aren’t important here.
What is important is faith.
I remember hearing a pastor once say, while preaching on 1 Peter 4:19 regarding suffering, that if after you enter a situation, it changes in a way that causes you difficulty/suffering etc., and you yourself are not responsible for the change – then it is God’s will. Now I am really not lovin’ hearing about suffering of any kind. But, things come to pass and there you are, somewhere you hadn’t intended and don’t want to be. If you are not yet one of His, it may be easy for you to just leave. But once the Lord has a hold on you…not so easy. You may not be happy where you are, but your heart is inclined towards “…Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven.” You are getting a hold of that pearl of great price, and will not let go. It is not just for you or about you, is it? You endure, for the joy set before you, hallelujah.
A very helpful principle to consider, in times of deprivation & disappointment, is that of death & resurrection. More than once, I’ve heard messages on this subject. In a nutshell, when God gives you a vision, it may come to pass that right afterwards, everything relating to it goes kaput! In fact, circumstances lead you in the exact opposite direction. God said “Up!” but you find yourself “Down.” Someone once outlined the three R’s of such situations – revelation, reversal, then reality. Like a seed being planted, in a dark, pressured place, roots go – where? Down. Then, over time, results are manifested.
Keep the faith.
When I ‘stumbled’ upon this Scripture about a week ago, my heart leapt.
“Cast not away therefore your confidence, which hath great recompense of reward. For ye have need of patience, that, after ye have done the will of God, ye might receive the promise.” (Hebrew 10: 35, 36)
Each of us who believe have our own walk with Him, and each of us hear Him. You can ascertain, even faintly, what specifically His will for you might be. His sheep hear His voice, and another’s voice they will not listen to…so…test out your thoughts on this. An event is about to happen, and when it does, you will understand. And you will be glad you stayed the course..